I am a bit of a thinker. I love to solve problems, mysteries, and curiosities. I love to ponder on the things of life, and think through situations, to make the best possible decisions. Although those can be good traits, there’s also a negative side to being a thinker.
I am often an over-thinker. I think of every possible outcome of a situation. I think of the words and deeds I have done throughout the current day, to see how well I scored. Almost every time I do this there are things I regret, and things I wished I had done differently. This often leads to fear.
I’m not always afraid, but when I am, it’s usually because I over-think things. What’s funny is that actual life doesn’t scare me nearly as much as the horrors I make up in my head. Bothering others, making mistakes, not living to my full potential, failing God, are just a few of the fears in my head that can, ironically, cause the very things for me to over-think and boom, fear.
Over-thinking not only causes fear, but it can change your perspective on life. You can take something amazing, over-think it, and now it’s something terrifying. It’s not meant to be that way, but that’s the way it turns.
I love to keep things simple, but sometimes when your mind thinks of all aspects of something, it just can’t be simple any longer. Things can get twisted, marled, and bent out of shape. Sometimes the only way to stop the madness is to stop thinking. Go workout, read a book, any hobby that can get your mind off of thinking.
But there is a better way. The answer to all of this doubt, fear, and insecurity, of course, has to be God. When we put our faith and trust in Him, it all has to leave.
Because His perfect love casts out fear, simply believing in Him and knowing His love for me is enough to put my mind at ease. I’m still learning so much. About life. About myself. About others. I’m still a work in progress, and I suppose I always will be. But knowing He’s there for me makes all the difference.