Forgiveness, and Why it is so Important 

Lately I’ve been learning a lot about forgiveness. About forgiving one’s self and forgiving others. I never thought it would ever be this hard. But the older I get, the harder it becomes. And yet, Jesus calls us to forgive. 

Forgiving myself. It’s always been the hardest, for me personally, to forgive myself. But if I’m supposed to love others as I love myself, that probably means forgiving others means forgiving myself.

I mean, let’s think about it for a minute. If God forgives, then who are we not to forgive? If the Just Judge will throw the case out, then why won’t we? 

I believe part of it comes from being judgmental, which is something else I’ve been learning about alongside forgiveness. Too often we’re ready to judge someone for the very thing we do ourselves. 

I’ve even found it possible to judge the judgers. Yes, we can actually judge people who judge! God is the Just Judge, and we have no place judging people. We don’t have a clue half the time about what people are going though. And we have to be careful. Because, “For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” -Matthew 7:2

So first, we can’t be going around judging people. Second, we have got to be quick to forgive when wronged, or, when we think we’re wronged. Holding a grudge, or ‘judgement’ is a dangerous thing, it can hurt  you and the person you hold it against.

Another way of looking at forgiveness is forgiving offenses. In today’s world, it is sooo easy to be offended. And sooo easy to offend others. But it shouldn’t be that way. We need to learn just to be loving and offer grace and love just as we have received it. We are ALL human, and we ALL make mistakes. But if we’re repentant about it, God will forgive us, and so we should forgive one another. Then true healing and unity can begin. And yet, even if people won’t apologize to us, we should still forgive them, because then it puts us in danger of not being forgiven. 

Faith, Where Did You Go?

Faith, where did you go? 

I found myself asking that very question. No where to be seen, my faith was almost non existent. 

The past couple months have been pretty rough. More psychological than anything though. I found myself questioning things. Almost anything and everything. God’s love. His mercy. His willingness to forgive. And ultimately…His existence. 

Deep down I knew He did. I knew that none of the universe was by accident. I just felt far away from Him. I prayed less, and believed less. 

My Faith had died.

It all accumulated until one day, I no longer felt worthy to be forgiven. Forgiven of sin, and everything I’ve ever done wrong, past and present. It’s a terrible feeling. A hopeless feeling. That no matter how much I repented it was too late. 

But see, I tried to. I repented, but I couldn’t receive the forgiveness I so desperately needed. The biggest reason I couldn’t receive it, is because I couldn’t forgive myself. 

Just as the Bible says you can’t be forgiven if you don’t forgive, that includes forgiving yourself. When I finally forgave myself, received forgiveness, I could finally move on. But my faith still wasn’t there. Well, enough was there to be forgiven, but that’s about it. 

But as I read the Bible, and pray more, the more I want to do those things. And I can already tell a difference in my thought process, and my faith. Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. 

If you find yourself with questions, looking for answers, or just lacking in faith, read His word, pray, and ask Him to grow your faith. He really does listen, and He really does care.